Maybe I shouldn't... but I do.
and it doesn't even occur to me to be bothered by that anymore.
Everything I've been practicing, is working.
That stupid nagging voice telling me what a bad girl I am...
And most people have always been surprised by me...
but this is different.
I'm not trying to justify myself,... not even to me.
But what will it do, if I keep going in this direction?
Will I lose empathy?
Have I already lost remorse?
It really makes no difference if I'm understood by you...
even if you knew what this feels like;
you would never have the courage to be me.