Purge

I feel you inside me: parasite, worm, demon
Clinging to the ribcage
Swelling inside my belly and behind my eye sockets
Twisting your wormish body around my vital organs
Milking my blood supply slowly like a kitten
Sleeping inside the folds of my brain, and hatching your disease
You've laid your eggs on all my living cells
Taken all my nourishment and replaced it with your black potion

I will feed you to the toilet backwards
I will stab at your wormish body with an ice pick
My veins will bleed your babies into the carpet
A starving body will harvest nothing
Miles of desert with no hope of rain
I let you in
I fatten you up
And then I kill you

Shrinking

Shrinking
I know my bones are under there
I heard them crying out to me
They have been buried for two decades now
Knowing
The butterfly is more beautiful than the caterpillar
The mysteries of life are more desirable than an open heart
It is the chase that quickens the pulse, not the meal

Some Day

Some day I'll settle all my debts
Tie up all my loose ends
And set sail

I'll Leave no trace
No forwarding address
I'll throw my cell phone into the ocean

My life is not for waiting
My life is not for hesitating

Some day I'll slip quietly out of the room
Close this door forever
And set sail